owh, crrrrrapp!!

(edisi why did i even bother?)

honestly, i dun know why i give a crap in the first place.
somehow or rather, old memories started to come back
and it was no surprise after all.

thankfully, i did stop giving a crap bout it.

cheese! macam mana aku boleh kesian and
wujud rasa sympathy bout it
gila bodoh.

hahaha.

nota kuku kaki suam: ketam masak kari jugak yg sedap.

the tahun-ly routine

(same old. same young? or still same old?)

first day of new year.
so, what's new?
new car? new house? new wife? new husband? new lover/s?
so, seriously.
what's new?

okayla, i'll try to stop being the party popper or the new year's Grinch.

or whatever name that you have for me.

so IF i do have some resolution for this year

what. would. it. be.

mmm. tough one.

okay, since i just had my second baby the last 3 months

i have this ugly, stretchy-marks' guts

that hangs out from my jeans every time i put on one

so how about that?

nahhhhhh! irregardless whether i just had another baby or not

the guts been there forever

so scratch that one

why? because i have an expiration date you see

where i made a pledge on one day

and broke it the next day

and ends up putting more weight than ever

suppose-sub-ly making me more psych!

i still have a lot, and i mean a lot of physical 'make-over' that probably need resolving

but that would just make me look ever so vain

so.... let's try overhauling my inner self.

be more optimistic comes what may

be one of those person that is beautiful deep down inside

bla bla bla

and be less cynic and bitter

have a more positive, glowing with aura-in-the-face inner beauty, yes?

owh, who am i kidding.

at the end of the day,
why making resolution that you know you can't live it
or because people tell you to
or because that's what everybody do for a new year?

do i really look like the kind of person
who will suck up to other people?

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.
.
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let me help you with that,

NO! i am not
and if you know me
i don't do that-whole-new-year resolution crap
i can make one on a quarterly basis
i can make one on a monthly basis
i can make one on a weekly basis
and i surely DO make one on a daily basis
it just that i don't call it 'resolution'

i just call it 'to-do-list'
happy?
now get off my back and stop asking me the same question every year.

ok, fine!
My New Year's resolution is to stop hanging out with people who ask me about my New Year's resolutions. 

nota kuku kaki suam: yup, still the same old cynic.

it's that time of the semester again

(edisi tepu assignments)

dah tau banyak assignments nak kena submit

ada masa la plak ya menconteng kat blog bersawang nih?

bila dah tension, mula la semua nak masok dalam otak
especially post pregnancy weight and body shape
betapa aku ni in denial about my mentality bab benda2 nih
yeah i know
i'm so vain!

i know i'm stressing out when

i update my status at least every 15 minutes on my wall

i update my twitter timeline in the same interval

i keep on checking my twitter online every 2 minutes (even if its just about traffic updates! sheessshhh!!!)

and if suddenly out of the blue

my bersawang blog making an appearance in both my twitter and fb timeline

haih haih haih

cepat datang semangat blaja!!! 

nota kuku kaki suam: let's just hope this is the last entry till i finish all my asgmts (mulut kumat kamit!) 

kira-turun

(edisi ngeng!)

three more weeks
to final asgmt submission
dun be fooled though by the singular use
there's plural use of it before the last asgmts
and i really mean lots

presentations
article write-ups
summarizations

u know the drill.

die.

nota kuku kaki suam: confession of a real life 'hardcore' procrastinator.

its gonna be hell

(edisi tayangan ulangan)

april this year adrieana kena hantar balik kampung
sebab tak de nanny
sebab eeboo x berani hantar gi nursery
sebab eeboo nak kena concentrate study

tomorrow
nak kena hantar adrieana balik kampung lagi

sebab still tak de nanny
sebab eeboo still x berani hantar gi nursery
sebab eeboo nak kena concentrate study lagi (final sem)

but this time around, azalea pun nak kena ikut sama

selok eeboo sampai habis semester nih!!!!

its gonna be hell starting tomorrow.

nota kuku kaki suam: raya korban dah lepas, aku masih berkorban? pergh!! ayat tak hengat,

a potty success?

(ambitious much)

semalam lil mermaid mimpi swimming across the atlantic kot
sampai tiga lapis bedding basah, uhuhuhu
so, lepas bukak bedding semua and she's commando for 5 minutes jap
while her eeboo finalize the removal of the beddings
menusuk bau her infamous ehem ehem... 'gas'
bila tgk dia nampak muka kemut semacam
wah! tgh menerankah mermaid aku ni?
makan banyak sangat rumpai laut ke mimpi smlam

so i rushed her to the toilet
put her on the toilet bowl alang2 dah komando
cuba aje lah potty training trus

of course i was there with her
sitting on a plastic chair (please remember my condition with the tummy -_- )
lama gak nak tunggu dia do her business

at first memang dia tak comfortable
yelah, the bowl is adult's bowl so i was holding her hand for support all the way
she dun know the word shee shee yet though she heard her eeboo uses it everytime
but she does know 'usyuk' (busyuk for "gas") and 'beyak' mean

so i kept on saying she should started her 'beyak' and 'eyak' process
and she did understand
but
she was making a lot of noises and start acting up
i massaged her rear back and her tummy because it usually works when she has some difficulty passing her stool sbb sometimes dia sembelit
and after 10 minutes she managed to make

ingatkan dah siap but when i tried to clean her up
she shrieked and started crying non-stop
tak habis lagi rupanya and its hurting her
put her back on the bowl and massaged her again and definitely
there's still more sbb she refused to let me urut her behind

oh dear,
this was first attempt gone wrong
she's having one of that once in the blue moon severe sembelit
she tried to teran again but not prevail
so after 10 minutes i took her down sebab tak nak dia dok atas tu lama sangat
showered her and decided that she make her part 2 in her diapers

urut ngan minyak mestika on her tummy, back and labu betis,
and after 10 minutes she made
huhuhuh

so, can i concluded it was a successful first attempt of potty traning?
errr... probably not kot, cause it might actually was a traumatic one

there's no way i'm gonna let her do other things than 'making'

tak psal2 develop hemerroid nanti, uff.

nak cuba lagi ke hari ni?

just have to wait and see.

nota kuku kaki suam: dah overdue thap gaban dah ni all this potty training ni as she's turning 3 in october. uhuk uhuk uhuk

an oven with two buns?

(sure, whatever that makes u feels better)

the tummy is super big
now understand why I barely takes any photo this time around (eee... tak baiknya!)
people keep saying that it's two buns baking
instead of one, huhuhu
(dun exactly now how to react to that, though)

whatever it is
you need to see me live
to understand where that comes from

because literally
I'm really, really big!

dem! ngantok gilo. tido dulu, zzzzzzz....

nota kuku kaki suam : apa yg penting, she's healthy and sempurna, amin ya rabbil alamin.



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when in boredom-land

(edisi membelon)

lil mermaid is bored.

bored with hi-5

bored with magic english

bored with nursery rhymes

bored with youtube kiddies channels

bored with upin and ipin

bored with toys

bored with wonderpets

... in a nutshell bored with everything LAH.

so she's been indulging herself with eating non-stop.

my god! my lil mermaid is turning into a lil cookie monster?!?

kena control asap!!!!

nota kuku kaki suam : kena carik activity baru sblm lil cookie monster jd lil dugong, huhuhu. (zalim siot eeboo dia!)

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today is

(d-day)

tension weh!!!
no matter how i avoid it, it finally has come to this.


ts gonna be a long, painful and longing period ahead.
uhuk!

nota kuku kaki suam: sacrifice.

rolling in the deep

i'm sorry
i've lost it
lost it for good
what else can i say?

round two, ding! ding! ding!

(edisi sakit)

sakit:

• melongoi yang agak teruk compared to last one
• tahap memboyot yang lebih besar for end first trimester compared to last one
• dan ngilu pusat yang sudah hilang dari permukaan bumi perut
• penat otak sbb this time around activiti mak boyot yang lebih active (celeron acting like pentium)
• physically cepat letih, driving miss foodie ulang alik gi class and sending/fetching lil mermaid
• babak2 scene kuch2 hotahei mengejar dan menjerit over hyperactive lil mermaid
• and last but not least for the day, constipation yang membunuh jiwa dan raga.

oh, did i meantion the stress of non-stop assignments, presentations, projects and write ups???

other than that, i'm totally fine!

nota kuku kaki suam: the experience with adrieana's make it so relaxing. huhuhu

turns out i'm not that mentally strong

(pondering and need for a change in the way the mind works)

feels so humble with the current pregnancy. bila fikir balik, banyak sebab why i felt that way and now realizing that i need to come to terms with it.

yes, finally admitting that i was denial bout lots of things this time around. and also found out that i'm only human to feel that way, that i ain't that strong both mentally and physically, and i need support. that  can't handle things just by myself. and most important things of all, those that i feel can't do much good to me can actually be my saviour, my pillar of strength.

yes, i'm no supergirlwoman, and i'm ain't living on a one manwoman island.

alhamdulllah for the rezeki, ya Allah.

"dugaan. Allah nak duga. besar pahalanya tuh. so be very humble and patient, dear."

nota kuku kaki suam: astaghfirullahalazim.