am back!!!!

(the eve of a new day... err... new post to be exact!)

so, today was my last day at the office. frens in fesbuk dah siap soh mula mengedet balik blog. huhuhu... lama eh bersawang menatang nih? tak der masa ma...

correction. masa ada, tapi otak tepu dan penat. that's why managed to fesbukking but not blogging. layan game kengkunun menghilangkan resah di jiwa. pergh!!!!

so, got back home. tidorkan si lil mermaid. incik moncit dah siap belikan kacang butir (kacang kuda for you sophisticated people!) and pumpkin seeds. of coz, coke se-tin wajib ada. so what did i do?

after adik2 abis layan their weekly dose of 'the amazing race' it is my turn. channel surfing nothing exciting. mulut tetap mengunyah kacang diselang seli sedut dadah coke, still jari tetap menekan butang kat remote besar tuh. cheesee!! have i lost the ability to enjoy tv programs? dem!

oh, dear. it's not gonna be this hard, issit?

nota kuku kaki suam:

countdown - 4 wd

(mari belajar mengira)

at the moment
a creature in the form of a girl (or woman, whatever suit you best at this second)
is cracking her head to figure our what she ate today that might have MSG in it.
migraine is playing peek a boo late afternoon. or could it just be, MSG in a form of a dutch?

jeng jeng jeng!

nota kuku kaki suam: whatever it is... dem! dem! dem! dem! dem!

'bulan baru' lepas 'nur-twi'

(cut me some slack ppl, it's nearly 11pm)

i know starting today

ppl will flooded their facebook, or twitter or blogs

with their muse of watching 'new moon'

trust me on this,

ppl would just freak out over one cullen vampire or a taylor-wolf

they're already shrieking

or even as we speak

booking another round of tickets for an encore

really, i have no problem with that

but for the love of god, people!

i DON'T watch it

dun intend to watch it in the cinema

i didn't even have an encore for 'twilight'

i did wrote my fascination over it

but what a shame

it's not my cuppa tea!

so, yes, i didn't get the bug or the buzz or whatever

or bitten or whatever the terms you 'twilighters' has been using

so stop asking me already whether i've watched it!

it's the same as asking the person next to you whether 'do you feel that' after an earth quake. geez!

nota kuku kaki suam: i'm suppose to be on hiatus, people!

dear.....

(friends, readers yg bbrp kerat yet i'm very greatfull and humble by it, dan kawasan2 yg sewaktu dengannya)

yes.
it's been a while.
but had been very busy not just because of facebooking
yes - work play a big proportion in the excuse
so, tak tau lagi how long it will take me

but as you probably know,











i'm on hiatus.

nota kuku kaki suam: masa mencemburui aku.. deng! deng! deng!

adrieana sofea bukhari

(shout out!)

happy birthday, sayang ibu and ayah!

nota kuku kaki suam: nanti2 eeboo buat entry panjang sket, ek? muah!

breastfeeding at its best

(ha.. satu lagi plus point untok mommies semua)

no. i will not go on and on about bf and my so far history of bf. i think i have made my peace here.

ni sajo nak bercerita pasal some of my mommies' friends dok tanya cam ner la aku berjaya mendapat body heidi klum minus the height menurunkan berat badan by the six month. but please be warn, ni bukan entry mengada-ngada or gloating tau! ni saja jer entry menyakitkan hati mendengkikan orang sharing. sharing is caring ma. and please also be warned, kalo nak dapat shape ala adriana lima tuh, konpem korang kena exercise ngan personal trainer yang macho berketul and strict diet, or much easier, kalo korang ada duit yang tersangatlah masyuk, go for a nip and tuck, people!!!

the first few weeks after my caeser, i realize my tummy shape yang mengalahkan guni beras import siam masa time pregnant. macam nothing changed regardless having your precious baby out in the open already. it was heavy and hukum alam graviti tanpa hesitasi menarik turun that sack like nobody business, and so is other parts [read b(.)(.)b.ies]. and you know all about the darah nifas and how clotted they all are sitting nicely in the sack. it was a very unsettling situation and feeling because now i know, kenapa some mommies bila berjalan macam menadah bahagian saggy tuh masa first few weeks as if takut perut tu jatoh.

and then, my mother told me to start pumping the bm sebab not only it's hurting me (susu penuh and adrieana is not taking any of it!) and bengkak susu is one hell of a pain. so, i needed to pump it. by that time, my bleeding was slow, not much.

once i start pumping i realized that my body felt much lighter (yelah, of coz sebab susu dah kuar) but because during my first loo after pumping put the milk, 2, 3 clot darah yang agak besar kuar. i was panicking, i mean.. clots!! and quite big!! you can actually feel it coming out the 'nozzle'! no kidding!!

i asked my mom, wondering why clots were coming out, and mak bonda told me, that is exactly what we are aiming. because it is not easy to get the clots out. and it will definitely fasten the process of getting all the nifas blood out (well, i'm no doctor, and my mak bonda can be talking gibberish but, sound good to me!). she called it daroh bata (translate bahasa KL as darah bantal coz it really does looks like a pillow).

and i did feel a bit lighter bodily (bodily????)

though i am not blessed with los of bm, the bm that i managed to get out really helped me lose most of the pregnancy weight. so, there you have it. bf-ing at its best.

tapi tak der la semua pasal bf aje. i guess my situation at home without a maid or an in-house nanny also helps because i was taking care of adrieana 100% (not to mention losing a lot of sleepy nights for the first 5 months!!!), do some housework etc. so, i guess that was my only exercise.

and oh, definitely among other confinement things that i DID NOT do, i abide whole-heartedly the pakai bekung for 100 nights, without fail. and sometimes, in the office.

after all that, i need to assure you that, NO, i dun have a good shape. i still carry that excess sagginess (huh???) around my tummy area.

nota kuku kaki suam : i lost all my good jeans, they are all loose. aku tak boleh nak carik logik sebab bontotku dah ala2 kim kardashian, paha ala2 beyonce, tummy dah gelek saggy ala2 shakira, then why the hell my jeans macam sarung guni nih????? takkan aku nak beli jeans size budak kot???

2 days to 12 months ago

(pandainya aku berkira-kira)

subhanallah. maha suci allah. tak sangka it's nearly 12 months ago perutku memboroi ke size yang agak besar dari jangkaan aku. huhuhu. patutlah semenjak dua menjak ni aku macam terasa-rasa kaki adrieana ligat menendang dalam perot. lusa genaplah 12 bulan adrieana sofea bukhari arrived in our small petit life.

i was reading and editing entry2 lama, when i stumble across all those merapek meraban aku masa mengandung. how i missed it and how still unbelieveable it was to me. but i won't go all mushy and emo over it, sebab mata aku baru lepas bergenang mengingat balik time2 itu.. cheewahhh!!!!

kadang2 rasa macam dah lama. kadang2 feels like it was just yesterday. how time flew and the rapid changes that the wind blew into our life.

semalam aku dok cracking my thick head bila ada member tanya, do i still remember the practices and feeling masa pregger dulu. mmm... turns out, susah jugak nak recall balik. sudah nyanyuk tua berumur sepantas kilatkah aku? no wonder hampir pecah cermin bilikku bila aku jumpa sehelai uban di atas kepala ku... tidak!!!!

yang aku ingat masa preggers dulu

• i'm not allowed to drink coke or any soda
• makan asam is also not allowed, walaupun suppose benda tu boleh mengelakkan or reduce my loya
• not allowed to read the newspapers or even books/magazines with pictures ithout being scanned proof by incik moncit (rasional dia - tak nak aku tgk gambor2 binatang/gruesome, semua yang sewaktu dengannya lah)
• must drink soy drink at least once a day (nak soh kulit fair sket, sbb incik moncit takut bb dapat kulit hitam itu menawan dia)
• dilarang keras tgk movie2 wajib tayang tengok aku setiap hari like LOTR and harry potter (ok apa kalo lekat muka arwen or legolas, or harry potter, tak lawa meh?)
• my favorite fruit pineapple dilarang keras
• iced drinks (patutlah anak aku asyik kepanasan, berpeluh sakan)

err... aku tak ingat yang lain.... kena crack kepala lagi. hehehe.

one thing that i never thought will happened was, betapa perut aku boleh stretch the way it did masa pregnantkan adrieana. my tummy was big and really nipis, and the orange peel skin was developed overnight. huhuhu... tapi skang ni more like a limau bali then orange peel... ntah, yang confirm it was bad. no, i didn't even bother to apply any cream to reduce the scar. bukannya aku nak pakai 2 piece bikini tak kisah rupa tummy ku yang buruk, tapi.... x der org nak tgk and nak ditunjuk pun, so malas la kan.

tapi on this date last year, yang aku tau, aku dah cuak ngingat nak kena admit ke ward for caeser. kecut perut2

nota kuku kaki suam : sapa nak tengok perot aku on the last day of pregger? ada tau... tapi.. jangan haraplah aku nak bagi orang tengok! hahahaha.

only in malaysia pt 2

(negotiation yang menjadik!)

so, i can safely say that it is so, so true when i did this entry.

as i was waiting for the lunch hour to ends so that i can go for my lunch (yeah, i avoided the normal lunch hour because it's crowded), my new colleague was just off the mobile speaking to her fiance. they were just finished having lunch.

M : so that was my fiance, he was stopped by the police.

A : why?

M : speeding

i laughed.

M : they were negotiating.

though i know bout what, i just have to ask.

M : he was asking how much he needs to pay. and the policeman said RM50. he was livid.

A : what did he say?

M : the last time I paid RM20.

i waited for the policeman replied.

M : the policeman was shocked! he asked WHERE! (???????)

A : my god, seriously?? he asked that instead?

M : yeah.. and my fiance said it's unreasonable. at the end, the policemen just asked for RM25.

nota kuku kaki suam : what more can i say??

me according to...

(reality really bites u in the ass when it feels like it)

me, according to **m

me, according to me

nota kuku kaki suam: and there you go. my upcoming weekend planning.

sehangat taik ayam

(lembik sangat ke aku nih?)

semalam aku teman colleague baru aku lunch kat office area. backofen to be exact. dia ni minah austria, lahir kat brazil. ikut tunang dia kerja kat malaysia. jauhnya datang ikut tunang, kagum sungguh aku. pasal semua datang sini? takder kerjakah dan dah bosankah tengok booties-licious kat pantai brazil tuh best sangatkah malaysia? mau gak aku kena tembak nih.. kui kui kui..

minah ni muda daripada aku, yang mana membuatkan aku pemegang record employee paling tua matang kat opis nih skang, tapi tak termasok boss la. boss tu kan dah kategori employer, uff!

so kenapa makanan omputeh jugak yang aku suggest kat dia? sbb past few weeks dia dok komplen kat aku makanan dah la tak best area kat sini and mahal, so tidak berbaloi ngan duit yang dia kena bayar. so, aku ni yang baru try makan di beberapa buah kedai kat sini, soh dia gi try makan kat sana. sebab aku pun slalu gak lately makan kat sana. aku suggest rosmarin chicken. besar woh portion dio. so very worth the money, in my opinion anyway.

so borak2 la kan. so toward the end, aku tanya dia, okay tak makanan?

dia cakap okay, tapi potato tak sebagus yang dia biasa makan, tapi dia paham malaysia bukan negara yang tanam potato. pas tuh dia cakap lah, dia biasa makan potato organik yang ayah dia tanam. dia pon citerlah ayah dia ni pencipta alam. so is the mother. well actually, the whole family.

dah citer psal family, aku tanya la, mak dia tak ada datang tgk dia ke?

dia cakap tak. sebab mak dia tak nak naik kapal terbang. it polluted the environment so badly.

terkedu aku jap. kagum pun ada.

dedicated sunggoh family dorang. when they fight for something, they really fight for something and really applied to the cause that they believe.

tapi aku pun dedicated jugak weh.

dedicated gila aku berkebun kat facebook tuh.

berbalik pada topik, lepas conversation aku ngan dia tuh, aku pikir pikir balik, aku ni ada tak implement benda yang aku ckp aku nak implement.

ingat2 balik.

nak boikot makan mcdonald - paling lama 6 tahun bulan. lepas tuh fail in the blank. tapi at least, aku tak melantak McD religiously dah skang. okaylah.. kira kurang la sket kot duit aku masok kat tabong dorang.

nak boikot barangan netherland a.k.a belanda sebab kes karikatur prophet mohamad. aku rasa yang ni agak berjalan lancar walaupun tak 100%.

save mother earth - err... fail banyak kot. aku pakai huggies a.k.a disposable diapers. not good. not good. well, nak pakai CD kulit adrieana tak tahan. dah cuba. rashes and heaty burn jadiknya. nak pakai kain lampin macam aku kecik2 dulu... well, dengan terus terang aku ngaku, aku tak rasa aku sempat nak basoh. takkan nak basoh pakai washing machine. rosaklah kain, weh. (alasan, alasan!)

tapi aku memang cuba(?) sedaya upaya nak reducekan penggunaan electric, tapi main focus sebab tariff dah tinggi. ish! ish! ish!

making this list doesn't make me look good. it actually gives me away, yikes!!!

haih.. aku sorang jer ke macam ni? huhuhuhu...

tapi gagal paling besar would be working with a belanda. nothing tops that, rite? huhuhuhu...

nota kuku kaki suam: but again, it's not really a wonder, new year resolution pun tak pernah capai. eh.. nanti jap. aku mana buat new year resolution. hahahaha.